Down--1 more pound! (5 pounds to go by February 28!)
I'm changing things up today and writing on my lunch break instead of tonight. Just want to keep all of you guessing.
I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past few days. I am so completely thrilled with not only my weight loss, but also how great I feel. I love that Xyng helps me make it through and entire day of school plus two hours of play rehearsal and still leaves me with energy to do what I need to at home. I love that when I am not on LEAN shake day, that I crave the goodness and the vitamins, nutrients, and proteins that Lean contains. I love seeing the results on my friends old and new. When my friend, Heath, introduced me to Xyngular, he was really giving me a gift. I absolutely love this stuff!
Here's where I'm struggling. . . . not only did I order the products, but I signed on to be a Xyngular distributor, much like Mary Kay or Beauty Control--maybe Pampered Chef--but I'm not sure how all of those work. And I do want to be a distributor. What I am struggling with is the how. I'm working on, what my therapist calls, "owning one of my disowned selves." (She's a smart cookie!) In my focus and quest for creativity and art, loving people where they are, and championing for the marginalized, I've warped in my mind that selling, making a profit is "bad." I've disowned the salesperson part of me. My wires are crossed somewhere, and I own it and know it is something I need to work on. In my past I was a pretty good salesperson--earning my way to Girl Scout Camp, New York City, and Washington when I was much much younger. So what has happened? I may never know.(But I will let you know if I do figure it out.)
I don't think others in sales are doing anything wrong or that they are "bad people." It's another one of those weird things I have where I feel as if I am doing something "wrong." Logically it makes no sense. But we humans every now and then don't make logical sense. (Wink wink) I can so clearly see the big picture--me joining with old and new friends, offering each other support, growing, bettering our lives, becoming our own community of positivity. Helping each other. Helping others. Of using these products to make our lives healthier, but that's just a small part. It's more than just getting products in people's hands so I can make a bit of money. It is improving the lives of all of those who are a part. That's why I want to do this.
I guess I just need to get out of my own way. I guess I have to figure out how to do that. I know there is a bunch of fear involved--fear of failure, of ticking people off, or other's opinions of me. How to we re-wire ourselves? So you know what this means, blogosphere; I guess this is another area of personal growth for me. And I guess I'll be growing here in front of all of you--if you will indulge me! :) As always I welcome your comments, advice, help, kind words, constructive criticism, etc.
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