Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes. . . .

Turn and face the stranger. . . . 

There, now everyone should have David Bowie singing in your head now. Pause for a second. I haven't listened to Bowie in yeeeears.

Ok, I'm back.

Yeah, guys, change is hard--even if you are someone that doesn't mind change. (Which, I am finding that that is not me!)

A friend of mine, learned from her friend, who will be mentoring me in the Xyngular business that "90 days can change your life!" Anyone who wants to make some improvements or positive changes in his/her life will think that sounds amazing. I agree. I also think it is frightening as hell! You know my tendency to over think things:
What if my life is exactly the way God wants it to be?
What if the changes I make are the wrong ones?
What if it works for everyone else, but not me?
What if I make the changes and find that I am not as happy?
What if. . .
What if. . .
What if. . .

Yesterday, I thought, no, I knew I could do whatever I dreamed. Whatever I set my sight on. Whatever I planned to do.

Today, not so much. In less than 24 hours, I talked myself out of all of the courage, optimism, positivity, and moxie that I wore like a badge yesterday. What a roller coaster!

I wonder what it is in the psyche of some of us that makes us sabotage ourselves. Yesterday I was going to knock over any obstacle that stood in my way. Today I am shattered by self doubt, self consciousness, and the blahhhhhs. (Good gracious, my therapist will ear her fee tomorrow!)

I know that I am not the only one that experiences this. I may be one of the only ones that is openly sharing it in such a forum. But, it will give you something else to watch in me. Some of you have signed on to watch me lose weight. Some to see how I can build a thriving business. Some because every now and then I bury of comedy in the lines of the post. Now, some of you can watch as I work on myself and my self confidence, awareness, etc.

So, it seems my blog is a one stop shop for some of you! I hope everyone has a great night!