Day 1--Month 2
It's been a blah couple of days, even though I had a lot to celebrate on Thursday: good report from the doctor, from the oncologist and great numbers to report on my new lifestyle. I think going to the oncologist, even though it wasn't a huge deal physically, was a big deal psychologically. This weekend, I decided I'd take another couple of days off instead of hitting the next Ignite Cycle. I'm fully expecting that I may gain a few pounds back, and I decided to make it kind of an experiment. It may not be the best idea I've had, but I made the decision, and I'm going to stay the course.
I got supper last night and tonight at two fast food establishments I would have typically gone to prior to discovering Xyngular. While I ate the meals and drank diet drinks, it was ok. OK the burger and fries last night were gross. Greasy. Flavorless, other than salt. The diet Coke was even too sweet. Tonight I had chicken nuggets and waffle fries, and though the taste was great, I wasn't ravenous as I ate, nor did I want more when I was finished. These are too places that I used to crave, that when I would bite down on the food it was sooo good. Like chewing on food from heaven. And now I think, "Really? What was it about this kind of food that I craved?"
I realize that it was a dangerous little game I played. But, I wanted to see. I want to be able to truthfully tell people if they ask about cravings. I want to be able to, when I help other people, tell them what happens if they slip. Of course the answer is just start again. I think it will ring truer and I'll feel better to say, "I did it, and here's what happened and what I did to get back on track." Or all this could be a rationalization of being self indulgent. Naaahhhhh....I swear my motives were pure! 
BTW--
Several people have asked what I can eat on this Ignite plan that I am doing. Here's a sample! (Some are snacks, and some are meals. And I ate about 1/5 to 1/6 of the pizza--ask about the crust--but the whole thing looks so yummy!)
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