And conquered!
Yes, friends, I did it! I faced it and beat it!
I'm frantically attempting to prepare for a conference on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday of next week. I am beyond excited about it, but stressed about it, as well. I am determined to go and have met obstacles all along the way. I can look at them one way as signs that I should resign myself to not going. Or I can look at them as opportunities for growth. Stumbling blocks on the way to my goal. I choose the latter because I am going. Hence, the stress that caused last night's Sun Chips Chow Down.
Well, I faced a temptation today. For lunch my nieces had Kraft Mac & Cheese. Now some of you may not know that kind of relationship I have with this paragon of gourmet eats. Well, I love it. I don't just like it; I love it. It is the pinnacle of comfort food for me. One that I would eat at least a box of 2 times a week BX--Before Xyngular. Prior to today I had gone cold turkey.
Not being a fan of sauerkraut, it was not hard for me to pass up on the Reuben sandwiches the adults were eating. There was leftovers of a tasty egg-bake in the fridge, which paired with a salad provided a delicious lunch. But there was that Mac & Cheese. I allowed myself a tablespoon of it. I ate it noodle by noodle--and they were the shaped kind, too, Dora or something--along with my lunch. It wasn't as I remembered it, and I considered it a victory. Hey, I am finally growing up!
Fast forward about 3 hours. I got some bad news. News that would have made the trip to Orlando to the conference next weekend much easier, had it turned out my way. But it didn't. I tried to keep a brave face, but my niece came over to me and patted my shoulder, "What were you and the lady talking about?" Concern was in her voice. I told her it was just some business stuff and tried to go back to reading my book.
She stayed near me, looking at me. "You look like your going to cry." She continued to pat my shoulder. I told her I just had a headache. "I can see the water in your eyes. It's ok, you can tell me the truth." She such a sweetie. I tried to reassure that I was fine and got up to get more water.
In the kitchen, what did I see sitting on the counter? The bowl with the remaining Mac & Cheese. I asked Mom if she was saving it for someone. When she said no, I popped it in the microwave. I didn't care. I was feeling bad. I wanted some, and no one could stop me. Then I happened to see the Lean Shake mix sitting on the counter. And I stopped and thought. The beeped. It was time to make a decision.
Well, you know by the title of the post that I beat it. And I'm proud of that. I am very emotional. I know that, and at home I don't have as much temptation around because I don't buy the things that tempt me. I mean, I'm not a masochist or anything. This week has been an eye-opening week for me as far as living with other people. It has not been that bad up until yesterday and today. And today, I am proud to say that, thanks to Lean, I triumphed!
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